The reason for no journal, comments, submissions, or anything was because I had a busy life. Included a girlfriend and a boyfriend. Working and schooling a lot. Not much has happened. I've been getting drunk a lot to down out my emotions. I don't know why I write this or in my Xanga ([link]) or on my Myspace ([link]) if no one reads them. Whatever. I've also been smoking herb. You know what I mean by that. Yes I started that shit since all my straight edge friends abandoned me because of my cigarette smoking. I could have just not started anything like that, but shit happens. The only thing I haven't been doing is having sex because I'm not a sex driven pervert. Life for me is going down. I've been looking odd with my new make up fetish and wearing new clothes that my parents freak about. Two months can really change a person. I dated this chick named Kelsey who I was more connected with then Brianna or any of them because she was like a female replica of me and now shes not mine and it pisses me off that I can't keep a long relationship. The mall sucks now and this twelve year old girl won't leave me alone just because I hooked up with four people in one hour she thinks I'm easy. I actually was attracted to those people unlike her ugly ass. Sorry to sound like a jackass, but I'm getting kicked out, about to lose my job because the new manager doesn't like me, and am losing friend. My parenst declared if I lose my job I'm out of the house. I'll just pay people to let me live there since I'm now looking for a job since I want to get somewhere in life. Somewhere good and successful. I'm in a band now called Chaotic Legion and we're black metal/a'capella. I've been happy a lot since I've been getting out of the house.